This is more of an interim note that a full scale blog. Went to the hospital on Monday and apparently my white cell count has plummeted despite all the supplements and the GCSF injections. It was absolutely fine last week but the last cycle of chemo does have this effect. What this means is that I am wide open to infections so I am on house arrest until Thursday, when I have another blood test. If the white cell count is still low I will have to go in for blood platelets or a blood transfusion, neither of which I want.
Luckily I can work remotely from the desktop at home-but the crazy thing is that I really do feel fine. It was a real shock to be told how much my blood count had dropped and for a while I felt really angry with my body. Which is a pointless exercise I am sure you will agree. There does seem to be a message in all of this about insisting on continuing on as normal when my poor body is protesting that it needs a break. Maybe this time I’ll learn! Our lovely flat is filled with sunshine, so I am planning on sitting in my own little spot of it and absorbing the light and goodness. No doubt that will manifest as another blog, but in the meantime, for those of you kind enough to be sending me healing, I would be truly grateful if you could focus on the regeneration of my white cells.
Thank you so much